Saw a pic of myself...one redeeming quality...

enderwigginout · #1 04-27-2003, 04:03 AM

I went to a festival today and one of my housemates took pictures. Ack. I looked FAT. Okay not FAT, but CHUBBY. Part of it might have been my outfit and the complete lack of makeup and the sunburn, but I looked like crap!

I just told myself I haven't really been gaining any weight in the last couple of months and I'm working TOWARD being more fit. So there. Any extra pounds during my bulk are GOOD pounds that will help make me look ripped later when I cut.

A consolation: I'm almost positive I wasn't tensed up when the pic was taken and I could DEFINATELY see my tricep poking out from the sleeve of my top. I worked out triceps last MONDAY (although I'm sure it might have gotten a teeny workout on Friday with back/bicep day).

Muhahahahaha...at least there was that right?

soccerchick · #2 04-27-2003, 12:13 PM

well since you don't like the pic you can at least look at it for motivation. i have a few pics of me where i look horrible and blah and i use them as motivation to work hard so i do look like that again!

but like you said at least you could see your tricep showing! now that feels pretty good doesn't it?

konaforever · #3 04-27-2003, 11:36 PM

scan it and post it:-p

Tyler Durden · #4 04-28-2003, 01:32 AM

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enderwigginout said:
I went to a festival today and one of my housemates took pictures. Ack. I looked FAT. Okay not FAT, but CHUBBY. Part of it might have been my outfit and the complete lack of makeup and the sunburn, but I looked like crap!

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I'll be the judge of that...as soon as you post your pics.

Cherie · #5 04-28-2003, 05:05 AM

hi! Ender, do you know how many takes they make of profession models before they get just one good shot?
We are our most severe critics, just think of it as a bad hairday!! You are working out hard and doing all the things that it takes to get the body you are aiming for, wait till you get summerpics taken, I am sure we will hear a different story!

Cherie

kiwi girl 1 · #6 04-28-2003, 06:39 AM

Congrats on the muscle ....Don't be hard on yourself on the rest.

First of all, 99% of women always looking fatter when they don't have makeup on and/or have a bad hair day. Don't know why, but it goes with the XY gene.

(The remaining 1% of women who always look gorgeous and thin, no matter what unattractive angle they are photographed without makeup have only been placed in this world to make the rest of us 99% feel bad - and it works !!)

Secondly, I think the more we work-out our bodies, the higher are the standards we place on ourselves and our fitness. We become more critical because we have set higher goals.

For example, I remember seeing photo's of myself ages ago, which at the time, I thought was fine.

But now I look at them, and I find myself scanning them with a much more intense eye - searching for any area of potential fat or flabby muscle.

So maybe you look just fine in those photo's - in fact you were probably the envy of other girls.

It may be just a reflection of the higher standards you are placing on yourself.....so next time ...flex that tricep and don't be so hard on yourself ....you look just great. [img]/forum/images/graemlins/laugh.gif[/img]

soccerchick · #7 04-28-2003, 08:47 AM

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Secondly, I think the more we work-out our bodies, the higher are the standards we place on ourselves and our fitness. We become more critical because we have set higher goals.

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i think this is so true!!! i am so critical of myself (and others [img]/forum/images/graemlins/shocked.gif[/img]). more so than i was say 4 years ago. i will look at pics of myself and criticize them down to every last detail... i need to work to those calves more, i can't see my bicep enough unflexed. or i can be out with a friend and they will comment on someone saying oh he/she's hot... well i tend to look at them and say ok i guess but they have NO muscle and look skinnyfat!!! everyone looks at me like i'm crazy, but its how i see things these days... in terms of muscle/non-muscle! [img]/forum/images/graemlins/grin.gif[/img] not sure whether that's a bad thing or not, but it works for me!!! (please tell me i'm not the only one that does this!!!)

enderwigginout · #8 04-28-2003, 05:26 PM

Yeah, true.

Part of it: I'm not much of a picture-taker and so rarely see pics of myself. But, that morning I was rumaging around my computer and ran across a few pics from two years ago when I was anorexic, but still fencing, so I was probably around 105 at that point or I wouldn't have been able to hold up in a bout. I was at a Halloween party, so I had on a nice outfit and my hair was all done blah blah blah. I just looked like I was a very nice size and my face looked a lot leaner (as opposed to the other pics where I think my face looks like a chimpmunk--very chubby). Right now I weigh about 135 (I'm 5ft 3.5in). I looked great in the Halloween pics which means I probably look in the pics like I weight about 115 or so cuz of the "camera-adds-10 pounds thing."

I know I need to loose about 15 pounds...although, I'm going by bodyfat when I get the calipers so I won't really be worrying so much about scale-weight. I want to get down to 17-18% bf. I have no idea how many pounds that will be, but I'm sure I'll be posting it in my journal on Wednesday or this weekend when my calipers come in. Like I said, it'll probably be around 15 pounds.

Ack...it just really knocked me other the head, but it was just poor timing. I already felt pissy cuz my nice clothes aren't fitting well (they weren't fitting well before I went on my "bulk" which is why I was going to cut...there really hasn't been too much of a difference in weight). I just kind of threw on an outfit that really didn't look that great, but I didn't really care and I didn't have a whole lot of stuff clean anyway. [img]/forum/images/graemlins/tongue.gif[/img] I'm not fat, and I know I'm not fat, but I just looked so chubby in the pics I wanted to cry. And then realizing I was going to hang out for another two months looking like that made me feel so crappy.

But, its okay. I've gotten a bit of perspective on it and am happier that I can see my (unflexed) tricep so prominately than how chubby I am in the pic. [img]/forum/images/graemlins/smile.gif[/img] Just wish my bicep would catch up. [img]/forum/images/graemlins/tongue.gif[/img]