pyro555
02-20-2006, 02:39 PM
Hello
Lately I've been walking down a road that seems to lead into the black abyss and I've just pretty much hit a wall on what to do about it. I know I'm new around here, but I've been coming to the site for awhile and it's a great community so I thought I'd turn to you guys for some support.
Since last year I've been working my way towards becoming a firefighter. I was able to find a job in july to help pay for my first class, which was EMT-B. I took that in the fall semester of last year and actually passed. I cut it close at the end with skills testing but made it through.
The next step was to take A&P. Because if you have taken that class it helps with your chances in getting into the paramedic program i'm intrested in. So i started that this sesmaster, only to not understand anything that the teacher talks about and to completly bomb the first test.
I believe I'm doing so poorly in this class because of my job. They offered me a promotion back in December, which I was more then happy to take. But they failed to mention to me that it would require working full time and wearing the crap out of me. I'm the asst. grocery manager for albertsons and I wake up at 4:45, get there by 6 and then for the next 8 hours I load carts, stock shelfs, make sure the other stockers are doing there job and deal with customers. It's a very tireing job and by the time i get home, go to the gym, I'm way to exhausted to do anything else. I get back from the gym around 4:30 and I'm usually in bed by 7.
This totally makes me regret the fact that Blockbuster offered me a job last month, but i was making some good money at the time and everything seemed alright because school hadnt started yet, so i turned them down. I told them i really appreciate the offer but I'd like to stick with what I have at this time.
Since school is going the way it's going i thought i should go talk to the same guy up at blockbuster and see if he might have anything available. He was a really cool guy so i'm praying he'll help me out. Was going to go up ther today, but i'm just wondering if it's the right thing to do. I'm thinking i could just drop this class i'm doing now and just work my (!@#$%^&*) off untill i start the fire academy in the fall and put paramedic school on the backburner for now. Or try and get an easier job and concentrate on the original plan for getting into paramedic school in the fall.
The real sad thing is i just really dont see myself making it through all this required training. Down in Texas you have to be certified as a paramedic and firefighter to have even the slightest chance of getting on at a firehouse, and paramedic school is just a beast. I just made it past EMT-B school with a B. I just really dont see myself passing the paramedic portion.
I guess because I just dont see myself suceeding in the end i just really dont see the point in all the hassle and stress i'm putting on myself. Which in turn gets me depressed and makes me not want to do anything anymore. I'm just feeling really lost and not quite sure on what to do and it's starting to really tear at me. So if you can please just throw a quick line about pyro, or Ian actually, in your prayers /forum/images/graemlins/grin.gif
Ty and sorry for this wall of text /forum/images/graemlins/cool.gif
Lately I've been walking down a road that seems to lead into the black abyss and I've just pretty much hit a wall on what to do about it. I know I'm new around here, but I've been coming to the site for awhile and it's a great community so I thought I'd turn to you guys for some support.
Since last year I've been working my way towards becoming a firefighter. I was able to find a job in july to help pay for my first class, which was EMT-B. I took that in the fall semester of last year and actually passed. I cut it close at the end with skills testing but made it through.
The next step was to take A&P. Because if you have taken that class it helps with your chances in getting into the paramedic program i'm intrested in. So i started that this sesmaster, only to not understand anything that the teacher talks about and to completly bomb the first test.
I believe I'm doing so poorly in this class because of my job. They offered me a promotion back in December, which I was more then happy to take. But they failed to mention to me that it would require working full time and wearing the crap out of me. I'm the asst. grocery manager for albertsons and I wake up at 4:45, get there by 6 and then for the next 8 hours I load carts, stock shelfs, make sure the other stockers are doing there job and deal with customers. It's a very tireing job and by the time i get home, go to the gym, I'm way to exhausted to do anything else. I get back from the gym around 4:30 and I'm usually in bed by 7.
This totally makes me regret the fact that Blockbuster offered me a job last month, but i was making some good money at the time and everything seemed alright because school hadnt started yet, so i turned them down. I told them i really appreciate the offer but I'd like to stick with what I have at this time.
Since school is going the way it's going i thought i should go talk to the same guy up at blockbuster and see if he might have anything available. He was a really cool guy so i'm praying he'll help me out. Was going to go up ther today, but i'm just wondering if it's the right thing to do. I'm thinking i could just drop this class i'm doing now and just work my (!@#$%^&*) off untill i start the fire academy in the fall and put paramedic school on the backburner for now. Or try and get an easier job and concentrate on the original plan for getting into paramedic school in the fall.
The real sad thing is i just really dont see myself making it through all this required training. Down in Texas you have to be certified as a paramedic and firefighter to have even the slightest chance of getting on at a firehouse, and paramedic school is just a beast. I just made it past EMT-B school with a B. I just really dont see myself passing the paramedic portion.
I guess because I just dont see myself suceeding in the end i just really dont see the point in all the hassle and stress i'm putting on myself. Which in turn gets me depressed and makes me not want to do anything anymore. I'm just feeling really lost and not quite sure on what to do and it's starting to really tear at me. So if you can please just throw a quick line about pyro, or Ian actually, in your prayers /forum/images/graemlins/grin.gif
Ty and sorry for this wall of text /forum/images/graemlins/cool.gif